My Fear

Death is a scary thing. When I hear the word death is instantaneous heart pounding, as if there was something that made me really scared. I realized that all living things were created to experience death, and I also know that death is not the end of everything, because after death there will be a new life where we will take responsibility for all we have ever done in the world.At that time my uncle died. I'm Her body was buried in a tomb not far from home. When 's remains were put into the grave I was so scared and my heart was beating very fast. I feel scared, confused, and immediately I remember all my sins. At that time I was confused what to do. How quiet there, how miserable there, nobody accompany. In my brain there is only death, death and mortality. I think that the property is of no use anymore because in the end we will return to God just by wearing a shroud. Does not feel the process is complete funeral, I woke from my reverie that everywhere. I think back and wonder what will happen after this ? Oh God I'm so afraid, afraid of my sins, fear of not being able to keep my promise. Then I came out of the tomb and I could look at the tomb , very quiet. I always imagine something scary that made ​​me even more scared when they hear of death. Until today I was scared when there is news of death.

My life My struggle

Life is a struggle, a lot of obstacles and hurdles that will befall us. Life is like an empty sky, how do we paint the sky to make it look more beautiful. But it is not easy to paint the sky with beautiful, many hurdles to go through. Sometimes the painting was damaged, sometimes the painting will be more beautiful than what we imagine. Life is like a spinning wheel, sometimes above, sometimes below.

Starting from here I have to fight for a better life. I was born into a very humble family. Ever since my mother died 20 years ago, I had to fend for themselves for a better life. When I graduated high school, I had a list of lectures at a state university is the state university of Surabaya, and I received there. Not a few hurdles that I had to go through to get into the college. At that time, my father was ill and had to be treated in hospital. I had to take care of my father in the hospital, because I was just the only child in the house, and my sister also work. Almost 2 weeks hospitalized father. I was thinking of not going to college at that time. There are 2 options which should I choose, the first lecture with provisions that take care of my father no home or second home I take care of my father but I do not lecture. Both it is a very tough choice for me. If there is a third option I would choose my father healthy and I can go to college. Finally there is a solution to resolve this problem. My uncle would take care of my father at home and I was told to continue my classes in college. Pleasure once I go to college and my dad on the other hand there are caring home.